27(ish) with no 'Prince Charming' (yet)

Coming from good 'ol Greeley, CO, almost all of my high school friends are married, have kids or some are even lucky enough to be married AND have kids. Most of those friends were in these situations right out of high school or college. After I graduated college, again from Greeley, I was surprisingly, and happily, still 'single'. I quickly picked up my roots and moved to San Diego.

In San Diego, it was like a whole new life style. People didn't even consider marriage until after reaching 30. In fact, I was in quite a serious relationship there, and my San Diego friends would look at me like I had something coming out of my nose when I would complain that my man wasn't putting a ring on it at the tender age of 24.

I'm not saying that either of these ways of life are right or wrong. I think the 'marriage' decision is based on what society has put on us, but more importantly, what the individual person wants in life and, of course, if that individual has found the him or her that will make a perfect soul mate.

Which leads me to where I'm at. Since kindergarten I have been that girl chasing boys, being chased by boys, and loving every minute of it. I have ALWAYS been a hopeless romantic. While I have made it very difficult for anyone to get through a tough wall I have built around my heart the last few years, I still believe in Love. I still believe in fairy tales. And just because I'm not married right now, doesn't mean I won't find my Mr. Right.

Why am I writing this blog? For 2 reasons.

Reason #1 for this somber, sad blog: I feel pressure. Pressure from society, especially since being back in Colorado. Pressure from my family and friends, that I don't believe is done on purpose, but regardless, it's still there. Pressure from my doctor who says I may have problems in the future with conceiving if I don't hurry it up. Pressure from my age. And even though it's just a number, it's a growing number and nobody wants to be the old woman with 10 cats, a robe and curlers in her hair (although I've joked about that on more than one occasion). Just because I'm not in a relationship right now and I don't have my 'other 1/2' doesn't mean I won't find him. And I know it sounds like I'm trying to convince you, but sometimes I really have to convince myself. My prince charming is out there, and I don't have to find him today, or tomorrow, but when the time is just right, he'll be here. And you know what?!? Being just me is good enough right now.

Reason #2 for this uber-depressing blog: I'm not in the same place as a lot of my friends. Like I said, a lot of my friends are getting married, having babies, making beautiful, beautiful families. And, I am so excited for them!!! It is amazing to watch and to be a part of. And I want my friends who are going through these times to know that I love being a part of this with you. I feel like sometimes I am kept out of the loop or not included in things because 'I'm not there'. I mean afterall, I'm Sarah, the single girl who has fun, but just doesn't get it. I get it. I just don't want it for myself, not right now, not without Mr. Right. Your families and lives are super important to me. Our lifestyles are different, but just because I'm not there, doesn't mean that I don't care.

Dedicated to those who feel the pressure. We've already taken this long, let's continue to take our time.